i take back what said in my last post, the one entitled "plastic". i was wrong. and i'm glad that i was. and now, i feel differently about my barkada, my friend, my going-to-college-relief.
look back at my last last post. i never did blind myself. ok, maybe a little, but not as much as i thought. and for the wrong reason.
i blinded myself because i believed that my friend was saying half-truths. well, she was saying nothing true, at all. they were down-right lies. maybe to gain attention? impress people? make herself look good? i dunno. but she was doing that.
there were too many lies that even she can't keep track of all of them and just pile them up on top of the other, covering her lies with more lies. burying each lie with another. burying her dignity and pride with it.
we, meaning my barkada and i, tried to help. honest. even if it took us time to confront her, we did. we asked her, tried to make her confess. told her that we'll love her no matter what. but..
nothing. we achieved nothing. she covered it all up again with new lies. new stories. new unbelievable 'facts'. and you can't blame us that we did'nt really tried. we really TRIED. twice, for that matter.
she denied it all and made up another story that doesnt really fit her previous ones.
but, you know what, i still like her. i don't know about other people, but, i still do. i really do. maybe because we spent a lot of time together. or because she's nice to me. or maybe for some unknown reason, i cant bring myself up to dislike her.
anyway, her aside. i feel that i'll really, really, really miss my barkada.
kahit sinabi ko date na 'i want out'
at i'll feel relieved that i'll be living them soon,
hindi ko matatangal yung apat na taon na kasama ko sila at napamahal ako sa kanila. kaya, whatever happens,
mamimiss ko sila. soooobra.Labels: tomodachi
