ME
i am julia antoinette domiguez macaranas. aka.: julz, juli-ah, macaroons, julers, julie, julz, julia, jul-chan, yuki-chan, yukime, and many more.
i am currently a freshmen in trinity university of asia taking BSN. and not sure whether to transfer or not.
i am 16 years old. born on the year of the goat (sheep?!). a gemini.
i am someone who loves. i am someone who hates.
i love a lot of things but hate a little less.
i love to draw and to write and to read. i love art and science. i love fantasy and reality. i love to talk and to listen.
i love a lot of people. i love to be individual but fit in. i love to see and be seen.
i love to notice tiny, glorious details. i love to appreciate and be appreciated. i love to love and be loved.
i love to hear and be heard.
i hate smokers. i hate users. i hate plastics. i hate injustice. i hate disappointment. i hate being ignored. i hate being noticed.
i know that i am a lot of things but i know that i am still very little. aren't we all walking contradictions?
Saturday, February 10, 2007
bess
have you ever woken up, realizing that you miss a friend that you oh-so-love?
then you realize that you're not as close as you were. you grew apart from each other. the fork road forced you to leave each one? the hand you were once clasping is now with another. and now, you desperately want that warm hand back? no?
well. i did. i have this close friend. lets call her bess
(sa mga nakakaalam. oo, tamad aqng maghanap ng ibang pangalan.) well, bess was my ultimate closest friend. she knew almost everything about me and often claimed that she knows me better than i know myself. and there are times that i really believed that.
see, the problem is, i belonged to this tight group and for some reason, they don't like bess. and they tell me to keep my distance. but i didn't want to. so it started creating problems to my group. they tell me that if i wanted to leave them, i could. but i don't want to leave them and i don't want to leave bess. and i was stuck. i had to choose.
i chose my group. i didn't leave bess. i just kept a small distance. and slowly, that small distance became bigger and bigger till one day...
bess is closer to the person who once disliked her. we see each other but we don't talk like we used to. its like (i quote from mica) "we exist but we dont co-exist". i don't know what's going on with her life. there is this huge gap between us. an unspoken wall that was built while we were apart. separates us. divides us.
i was sad. i am still sad. i wished that i could turn back time. but you cant. you just have to keep going forward. we have no choice.
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said yukime 10:52 PM
