just because you're currently "broken" doesnt mean i wont write on you anymore.
just because hardly no one ever reads my blog doesnt mean i'll stop rambling on you.
just because i have an lj doesnt mean i'll forget you.
its just that i hardly have the urge to write anymore. HELL, i dont even draw on my beloved sketchpad!
reminds me that i hardly get to use my pencils, imagination, paper, and hand anymore. there is just no spark in my life right now. not even a little click. nada.
except for migz.
but there is nothing that inspires me to draw or write at the moment.
i really miss the time when hours would fly by while im so absorbed in the world im creating in paper. i LOVE to draw. its my passion. but there is just no spark.no flame. not even friction!!
OMG! i need to find inspiration. i have to bring my sketchpad to school again. There might be a chance that i might suddenly have the urge to create another world.
do you know what it feels for me to draw? i cant really put it in words. really. but there is something i read that is almost what i feel.
"When you are drawing, it is like the whole world ceases to exist. It is just you and the page and the pencil, maybe soft classical music in the background, or whatever, but you dont actually hear it, because you are so absorbed in what you are doing. When you are drawing, you ar not aware of the time passing, or what is happening around you. When a drawing is going really well, you could sit down at one o'clock and not look up again until five, and not even have any idea that so much time has gone by until someone mentions it, because you are so caught up in what you are creating.
There is nothing in the world, i have found, that is like it. Watching movies? Reading? Not really. Not unless the story is really, really good. And very few are. When you are drawing, you are in your own world, of your own creation.
And there is no world better than that."
- Meg Cabot, All-American Girl
Really. Almost like this feeling. Actually, just a very, very, very little difference in what i feel and that.
BTW, i want a new sketchpad or/and drawing materials for christmas! XD
speaking of drawing materials, i have always wanted soft pastels, chalks, different shades of charcoal, a really BIG and good eraser, a box of pencils, a big sketchpad, EASEL!, canvas, paint(oil), new pencil colors(48 pieces), and a good model.
waaah! im drooling just thinking about it.. <3
i think, the charcoals would suit me better. i was never really good with colors. black and white and grey are more my style. but i want to learn rendering, too. i could manipulate colored pencils, and very little paint, but i cat get the hang of chalk and pastel. uh-uh. im willing to learn, though.
i also want to try oil painting. it takes a lot of time and determination, according to my beloved dess. and yeah, it realy does. but it would be so cool if i could and would be able to do it just like she did. XP she really makes very beautiful art.
im better at scultures and stuff than painting. but really, all it takes is practice. just like drawing and everything else. PRACTICE, PRACTICE, PRACTICE.
soon, i hope i could do it soon.
my parents promise to provide me with art lessons and stuff this summer for taking up Nursing. But i wont be having summer breaks for 2 years. Trinity holds summer classes for AHSE students. unfortunately, 1st and 2nd year BSN is under AHSE. --__-- bad job!
to those people i gave my drawings to, be grateful. i just gave you a part of my soul. that is how i love you. BTW, joy, do you want a part of my soul, too? i dont remember giving a part of it to you. XP
remind me to sketch you something. maybe make it a digi art. although i think ur better at it than me. XP
Labels: drawing, passion, rambles
