grabeh. i've just had one of the longest phone conversations ever.
ron and i started talking at about 9.30 or 10pm, and ended the phone call, 2.30am. XD and my record before was 4hours 30 mins. XD
its really a nice ego booster. i felt pretty and wanted again. :P im sorry, but thats really how i feel. and i write it down in the risk of being called insecure and vain, or KSP.
i needed that ego booster, though. after my ego deflating because i got set aside and forgotten for the sake chem 17. what can i do?
i don't mind that much anymore. i have ron now! XD lolz. joke.
its nice to get distracted from loneliness. XP really nice.
its funny. he was really quiet in class, not meeting my eye when he talks to me and just kind of mumbles his way through. but when he's safe from ilde's grasp of humiliation, he just becomes talkative, and funny, and sweet. XD
he's sooooo devoted to his religion. and he tries to help me by being preacher-like and wants me to experience salvation that i don't need (in my opinion, anyway).
reminds me, he started liking me because there was a time he gave me this pamphlet of some kind for salvation-chervaness. and i got offended. i mean, did i really look that delinquent-ish? i returned it to him with all the cheerfulness i could muster that moment. then, that rejection kind of challenged him, i suppose. -__-
weird kid.
the thing is, when i asked him what kind of girl he likes, he described a girl quite the opposite of me. i asked him why the hell did he like me then?! his answer:
ewan.weird kid.
i got him to tell me what kinds of
papansin and
"pasimpli sa pagsulyap" he uses and he said some kawaii stuff. XP he told me that he'll pretend to look at the teacher but he's actually staring at me. or before we go home, he'll glance at his back to see whether we'll go straight home or hit the malls or play dota or whatever, first. then he'll text me "ingat. gbtc....". when he makes
"papansin" he'll deliberately try to get caught looking at me. or he'll pass me several times to do unnecessary things just for the sake of passing me and the chance that i'll look at him. XD but my favorite was when he pretended to help me open the windows during CE. and he got "
kilig" coz "
nagdampi ang mga daliri namin"(these were his exact words) and got me giggling so hard, i almost woke jasmine up. XP
wala lang. its just nice to be noticed. it makes people feel special. i havent felt special for a long time. its a nice distraction from the reality that im not.
